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So it's 4 months later since the last post in this thread now -- and unfortunately almost everything has changed for the worse here. AUSTRIA is the country with the 5th highest infection rate per 100k people (positive return rate per 100k tests) _worldwide_ right now ... that's right: USA, India - all behind us. Not many people on this forum will live in a country with higher positive test return rates. We are in second "lockdown" - which is a joke though, you can go out and even get Coffee to Go, nobody will say anything. And top of all: I woke up in the middle of last night with a very peculiar metallic blood taste at the back of my throat which reminds me very much of the shit I went through in March... You can imagine how happy I was about it ... I panicked so hard I couldn't sleep for a long time after that. The metallic taste is gone, but I have a strange feeling of a foreign object in my throat that does not go away no matter how hard I swallow. It's nothing I panic over right now, but I think it will be different in the night if it doesn't get better, I assure you of that... That thing with the metallic taste is especially significant because: it apparently is FINALLY talked out loud that hemoptysis alone can be a symptom of Covid-19 - has not reached mainstream doctors, but first publications are available: https://bmcpulmmed.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s12890-020-01312-6 I strongly believe that what they write about here is the same manifestation of Covid that befell me in March, alhough I was fortunate enough not to catch it so severely that they had to put me in hospital - and I "fortunately" had a positive swab test, otherwise we'd be none the wiser until this day! Chaos all over... Sounds weird, but: I hope you did what you wanted to do in this life. I don't think good times will roll so soon again for us all... Did I do what I wanted to do in life? Well, fairly yes - I maybe should have written more (wanted to become a writer) and it was stupid of me to be lazy and give up blacklight painting, talking french (lost that ability) and maybe I should have travelled more, but travel was fairly okay with approximately one trip each year. Had I known it would come to this, I'd have done more, but I didn't know. Partying was fine - purists may give a weird look and say "what, so little?", but I don't care because I feel fine - that is most important ... I also feel fine about my video game consumption. No regrets. Friends? Fairly okay, but I could have done a bit more in this department, calling people more up, keeping in contact more. Girls? Not fine at all! But I am enough of a realist that I say I'd be as timid or stupid next time I'd come into those "girl situations" again ... just isn't my thing. Maybe I knew I needed my capacity for something else instead of messing with girls - i.e. having my kind of fun. I'm not unhappy about it. Career decisions may have not been optimal, but are meaningless to me - best was to give up the second university study and focus on having the last bit of a good time in life! What about you? Edit (so this doesn't come across as a total depressant): don't worry I have not lost motivation and I think I will (or should) also make a post stating the goals / outlooks I still have, even despite the current situation. Oh and I have a GF right now, so I don't wanna say "Girls = all went bad" ... could have been better (lots better) in my youth though