I understand but I can't help but feel sorry for you. You are missing so much by being such a shallow listener.
I said in another thread that Bus's tracks would be to subtle for you & it's because you are not a patient listener. Gus Till under his Slinky Wizard moniker made great instantly gratifying music, but later on he crafter equally great but more subtle focussed music that I don't think you would be able to get into. You need a pair of head phones, a lack of distractions & time to focus to understand long ambient, minimal psy trance or old progressive music. Probably this will come with time as when I was your age I didn't dig it at all, but with the stresses of life it became much more accessible now I love diving deep into some long ambient journeys that take me away & keep me in that other world longer than just a few minutes.