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lol no, my gf at the time, in 2010. i just wished she was 10 years older cause i always admired her for being so badass.

Thats okay. Kids are always gonna be the ultimate excuse for anything. but when theyre adults, you better have a better arsenal of excuses ready. lol.

I wanna thank you.. I just realised you called it a masterpiece. That means so much to me. I like it myself alot, sure, but this is the first time anyone else says something about it. So thank you, and you are very welcome.

oh yeah, another famous story which i pray to god often is fake- is this . im paraphrasing from memory. not even paraphrasing. just recreating the story. "Hi! Want sexdolls? I take kids when they are just before puberty. I then slowly remove all of their senses by blinding and deafening them. Then I remove all of their limbs and you have a sexdoll you can hang on your wall - and should please you as long as you feed it!" something to that regard. now, i havent dared followed up on this story because if its true, i would never sleep easy again. i would fucking become batman on these motherfuckers. i dont even care about my own life. i just care about my mom when i die. so i will try to survive until she dies. but then? fuck me. if my life isnt better then and ive found my soulmate, i dont give a fuck. i can just say, no VPN will hide you, I will find you, and I will kill you.

yeah he was playing with his toys most of the time. he didnt actually watch the movie with us, but he was in the couch with us. we made sure he didnt see anything REALLY bad. besides - he was too young to comprehend it. the second child didnt care much, he has adhd - the third child, the teen, shes just a badass overall. I just wish she was 10 years older and I would have married her. She is 18 now, so those thoughts are cool.

word! and while i think im patheticly un-brave to not go after these pedos and sickos, i realise i dont have the knowledge to do so, (im not that kind of hacker), but i also realise turning a blind eye physically doesnt mean i turn a blind eye in any other way. I dont need to see it with my eyes to know its there. Saw for me wasnt realistic in the same fashion as Hostel but I do see the comparison. Saw just seemed a little over the top. Hostel seemed like a fucking documentary, and please dont youtube hostel.... youll find vids on cloning centers all over the world where these things go on. Only one thing lacking from these videos. Strangely enough.. Sources and Evidence. But hey, if you are a bit paranoid by nature, and are a cynical realist - then you better not google it cause your intellect will say" hey, its very fucking possible" and you dont want that shit in your mind.

"Oh, I did once see a guy above his head up a woman's vagina, but that was in club in Spain. " -lmao well youre lucky. for one, you have a sick and curious wife (you prob have amazing sex life) and seems to be a badass. Secondly, you chose to avoid seing this nasty shit, as I have too. Sure, I saw shit I wish I didnt, but I kinda sorta knew it was there already. (kid porn) just didnt realise it was just there, for everyone to see, in the open.... but that really fucked up stuff (like kido porn wasnt enough) i just cant see. Im not as brave as your wife. Im more like you. I just dont wanna see someone jamming a screwdriver into a mans eye and laughing about it. I just dont. Its not like im blind to the fucked up life of mankind, I just dont wanna see it. I dont even watch horror movies for christ sake. edit: I watched the movie Hostel with my present GF and her three kids. I was the most scared and petrified by 10000% than anyone there. And the youngest was like 6. The girl, 13 yo, kept laughing at me when i hid my head in my hands. Im 34 soon god dammit. Was 28 or something then. any case, horror movie scenes tends to stick to my retina for weeks. After I saw the grudge with my friends in College - and I had my head in my hands for half the movie - I still saw enough to not be able to sleep properly for months. that blue kid and the girl with the hair was like, god damn. But that was over 15 years ago and laugh about it now. Can watch grudge now no problem. but hostel felt like it was like a documentary :/

How far did you allow yourself to go? Everyone has a limit. As soon as i saw that pedo shit which I actually thought was a myth at first, but i didnt even have to search for it to find it. I was sickened as these kids were WELL before their puberty. A sleepless night later (wondering how many sick people live on this planet, and if films like for example Hostel are actually real life - cause it fits with whats on the deepweb) Anyway, I decided to avoid anything pedo, and see what else is there. But then I came upon Necro porn, and it looked so real, that I had to tell myself it was completely fake. (just looking at the screenshots) Thats the extent of it. I havent seen any of the " classics that will ruin your life" clips, for example a guy getting a screwdriver jammed into his eyes by laughing teens as he slowly dies from pain and bloodloss. So yeah, i havent watched that. I couldnt get the images of these 4-5 year old girls out my head for weeks and the thought that their fathers are the ones doing it to them i dunno, i really felt like i was alone in the universe. then i realised, its just probably a very few amount of people who are this demented and i shouldnt lose hope in humanity alltogether. i still believe everyone has a good heart by nature. anyway, how far have you ventured and what was the worse youve seen? 2 girls in a cup is a Cartoon compared to what there is on the deepweb. edit: if you ever consider sucicide, do yourself and the world a favor, find these people and kill them first, THEN kill yourself.

im willing to bet bragging rights that yes, he is trolling but on that next level shit. like he goes all out, almost devotes his life (or at least a good part of it) to troll us and (the world?) Some people just wanna watch the world burn. Even if its just around them. And trolling an entire forum like this, to a troller, a troller in the caliber like NHJO, its like Euphoria to see all these people believing he is serious. Because that is the main reason a troller troll; to get reactions like he is NOT trolling. Thats the most funny part. But there is a HUGE different between malevolent and benevolent trolling, please be aware, and do not lump all trollers in the same corner please. Some trollers have caused people to end their lives. So its a serious issue. But most trollers just wanna laugh their ass of seing the creature they created grow and grow. I know cause I was an avid troller for MANY a year. Im grown now so I stopped (well, sometimes i troll around on psynews a little, but as you all know its all filled with humour and love now and i dont wish any malice towards anyone) But before, when I was angry with myself and life - I took it out on the internet.. In various ways. Some Im not very proud of. Point is, I know trolling in and out, I was an internet geek since 1993 and never stopped. So all has been seen. Except that darkweb shit. That aint even funny. Thats not trolling and if it is - they should still be executed, at least some of them. And Im pro-life. But if you havent browsed the deepweb, DONT! Save yourself cause loss of belief in humanity is not far away as soon as you open up TOR.

two people who i shall remain anonymous has graciously offered to help me in my dire situation. and it really is dire i wouldnt even bring it up if i wasnt afraid it would lead me to my ass on the street becoming homeless. cause that was a real real possibility. but thanks to these two strangers, i can now solve the most acute of situations, getting the government of my back, not getting that "mark" (in sweden we get a mark that stays for us three years. this mark means we cannot get loans, credit cards, rent apartments, or basically function normally in society. Ive had 9 of these marks before in my life, and gotten rid of all of them. So I really did not want to end up there again.. That life sucks.. Your like in a prison really, cause the government now basically owns u, and collect EVEYRTHING you earn that is over "basic living expendatures". * i THINK social security in USA is somewhat similar, but i think its better in sweden. Our "basic living standards" is around 400 euro AFTER they paid your rent for you. and yes, that has to last for hobbies, bills, etc. And ofc it doesnt. So yeah, thanks to these two anons, im able to rescue myself from this situation, or at least postpone it long enough for me to rescue it. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you both of you. I just feel like I wanna cry basically, because im so humbled Im having difficulty even saying the words "thank you" cause they dont mean enough. Theyre not strong enough words. *very simpflified explanation on how our governmental "collection agency", the mother of all collection agencies, works.

yes it's my remix. thank you very much. here's the wav http://www.aeap.se/ftp/hallu.wav its also in Free music Promotion

drugs are shit but when life is giving you a smackaround for years upon years, drugs save lifes. im not joking about this, its very serious. even doctors ive spoken with about my addiction, says its lucky that i had alcohol so that i survived. even doctors who very well know that when they deny a patient proper meds, he or she will go and get high one way or the other. and ofc there are many sad stories where these people end up dead, but if these people keep going to the doc hopefully itll work out and once the addiction is gone, ALOT of people will never want to go back to drugs. and few people are lucky enough to be able, after a long addiction, to remain the self control that is necessesary to be able to still use drugs once in a while. for example ive smoked now for about two months but it was 6 years before that. and im about to quit this too. actually i did for a while but started again few days ago, but will stop again very soon cause i have to change my priorities. xanax is another example. i have a bunch at home, but i can easily not take them. that is a sign of a non-addictive personality. before my change, my complete crash which led me to the ER three times in december, ¨when i stopped opiate use alltogether and had a three month long withdrawal - and i decided to never ever go back to life of addiction. and that insight was powerful. this is why i can which many cant and shouldnt even dare try, to have stuff at home and be able to not crave nor take it. so all the critera of an addict - i met like a year ago. now, its just to consume time and escape this current catastrophe. but i know that when things sort themself out - cause i sure as hell cant sort them out, thats why im waiting on that miracle - that life is - things just have a way of sorting themselves out. so im praying on that. and by that time when my situation is stable, i know for a fact i will go back to clean me again. but opiates? never again not even once. all im talking about here is alcohol, benzo and weed. Sorry for the wall of text, just had to elaborate that drugs save lives, including my own, on several occasions.

Soo sweet. The parts at for example 1:42 -> is pure eargasm. One of the top Silcon Sound tracks! I know its a remix but still very much a Silicon Sound track. But the whole Pure Analog album is my favorite fullon album. I want MOAR from him. His sound is so refined now, Pure Ànalog should be named "almost" Pure Analog and his name "almost " Silicon Sound. i.e he had not hit his stride yet. Now his sound REALLY IS silicon and the feel really is pure analog. (and yes, I realise this was earlier than Pure Analog or about the same, I meant his new stuff has very refined production now, but no real great tracks yet since Pure Analog.

They have this AMAZING track but I dont know anything else about them nor have I seen them elsewhere. (Global Psychedelic Trance VAs) this is just gorgeous. dont worrym i didnt ruin it with my mastering, trust me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFh1R9f--Ms

todays survival mode included: pawnshop: router, sound card, watch. for a total of 100+ euro. so i spent some i some alcohol and cannabis ofc to escape the living nightmare, which is why im even able to communicate anything today. i know, i dont need any moral coments, any lecturing, im a grown man, i know when and why i make mistakes. thats one thing. the other thing, even if i didnt spend these puny money on the drugs, it wouldnt have helped in any way shape or form in any other way, more so than food for another day. but tbh, the way things are going, food is no longer prio 1 . survival mode is completely different for every individual but its the same instinct. survival. and thats what im doing . edit: and mind you, if you are thinking im begging you are severely mistaken. firstly i do not accept handouts, secondly im not that low and depsereate to beg on a forum. im just sharing my thoughts and thats all. i dont care what you believe but thats the truth. so i sware to god.

i wish i could explain in detail but its far too much detail.. ill just say thanks for the support it means alot. thank you. <3.

nothing much, except the top 5 of true psychedelic goa trance of all time thats what yup, its definetely up there with the titan tunes of goatrance. except it dont get enough love cause yall dont get it. but give it a few listens and youll also be enlightened but seriously that kick and bassline tho those aahs and oohs tho that subtle but yet extreme psychedelia though *this comment contained some sarcasm* edit: and me making this on a core2duo laptop, almost 7 years ago lel

all it took was about 500 euro a friend borrowed and didnt return that slowly caused a downward spiral that im now very much feeling the effects from. income too low and it piles up and becomes more and more. but even with added costs, interest and stuff, even 500 euro now would like, basically solve it. and i get 500 euro in tax returns but thats not until a little over a month from now and every day now is survival mode, strictly. and thats about it for the acute situation..

bumpz for this time, the first track too! they work so well together as an entity,

my dream finally came true, and here it is in all its glory (if you havent heard it allready. if you already did, then listen again.) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xIY59cW76nU

its really too complicated to list.. but the problem is im only 50% to blame but i suffer the full 100% and bills are piling up, collection agencies bills are piling up - its not looking good.

bumpy! it would be a dream come true to have this track <3 its like he took the original remix, flipped it, added the orginal, flipped it, and created a second masterpiece that MUST be shared with the world.

Fuck is wrong with felipe, that MPD (DPD* these days) though... I wish you well bro.... @ Imba and Neogoa Congrats on the success and imba, keep at it brother, i know you have that masterpiece in you! richpa, thanks for making all this possible. I wish you all the very very best of success on all levels of life. *Dissociative Personality Disorder. Replaced Multiple Personality Disorder. Previously DPD stood for Depersonalization Disorder. Now they seperated them into DR ( Derealization syndrome) and DP (Depersonalization syndrome) which often occur simoultaniously. source: my own knowledge but wiki and the DSM will tell you a similar story.

im depressed. my economic life is crumbling all around me. xanax and weed and alcohol dont even help so i stay away. but nothing can cure this anxiety cause its not caused by thoughts in my head, its very real situation.. pray for me or whatever... going thru the absolute roughest time of my life and im in very really at the end of the road and there can only happen two things. catastrophe or miracle. ive burned all my bridges. peace https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHI8VT9OtNA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFh1R9f--Ms